I think the degree to which you filter your writing has a lot to do with what you want to get out of it. I like to write because it helps me reflect, I want to share my riding development, and share knowledge (Not that I have much knowledge to share yet!). This blog read like a riding diary, a place I was keeping experiences, opinions, and memories. But something I failed to consider was that the experiences aren't all mine, they belong to the owners of the horses I ride. Success or struggle, I don't have permission or a moral right to document my (subjective) opinions.
I think writing about my amateur and student rider struggles makes my writing easier to relate to. Yes, I have big messups in the show ring, and yes, I get nervous sometimes when I ride young horses. I wanted to potentially reach out to people in similar situations so we can relate and commiserate in our struggles and celebrate our successes. But I can't share these things because it might put the horse in a public eye that the owner doesn't want. I don't own these horses so I don't have a right to share things about them.
Before moving north I always had my mother and sister to talk to about what was going on in my riding, they were right there in the truck with me on the drive home after every ride. I didn't tip toe around what I told them and they know all my ups and downs, warts and all. Since moving I haven't found a similar outlet and I have been using my writing as an alternative. Here is where lack of forethought bites me in the ass because although I knew the internet is extremely public access, I was relatively sure it wouldn't get very far out into the world. Just in case I changed several details and was a little vague about people or horses. However a little vagueness doesn't do much good when directly involved people end up reading. I can agree I'm guilty of sharing my opinions and experiences on here in too descriptive of a manner but I didn't do so with ill-intention of starting rumors or to speak poorly of any horses. My intent was to reflect on my own riding at home/ in the OUEA/ at shows and connect with other people.
I think without sharing the struggles and only sharing the successes doesn't paint an honest picture. I definitely don't always have a perfect ride and I don't want to paint it that way. I'd rather be seen warts and all, then pretend I'm perfect. I think for now the best way to resolve this is just to not write anything about my riding in particular (good or bad). If I ever end up owning another horse I will be able to write more candidly about our development, but even then there will always be people/ barns/ horses involved that deserve to have their privacy respected.
I'm not entirely sure why I feel driven to share my experiences with riding or write them down, but don't want to stop writing entirely. I may not be as excited to write about things other then my day to day riding but I'm sure I'll find something.
Moxie has been enjoying a muddy spring so far!:
We still have lots of snow but there are some signs of spring!